So, some one challenged me to write thirty random facts, habits or goals about myself. Here goes:

1. My biggest fear is losing control.
2. I wish every day of my life, that I could be exceptional at one thing.
3. I am ridiculously insecure, but I don't think I show it.
4. I used to be fluent in Greek.
5. I wish I had more ambition to do my best, but I don't.
6. I do not want to get married or have children.
7. I over analyze everything.
8. My mind thinks faster than you'd think.
9. My favourite movie is Troy.
10. There's something I've thought about, that no one will ever guess.
11. My family owns a sporadic plot of land in Greece.
12. I really enjoy the games Scrabble and Scattergories.
13. I dream in black & white, as well as colour.
14. I've developed a problem with authority figures.
15. When I'm older, I plan on working in the media.
16. I have my life after highschool planned.
17. I create new milkshake flavours at work on a regular basis.
18. I've started writing three novels, but I don't think they'll ever be finished.
19. I have nine best friends, and a handfull of other close friends.
20. As soon as winter starts, I beg for summer. It's like clockwork.
21. My passport picture looks like I'm trying to attack your jugular via photograph and lasers shooting from my eyes.
22. My grandfather and I have the same name.
23. Greek salad is my favourite food, and probably will be until the end of time.
24. I secretly love Greek music. But don't tell my mother.
25. Sometimes I wish my life was different, but then I realise, I really wouldn't change anything about it.
26. I really want tattoo sleeves, but my family would disown me.
27. I download music everyday. Anything works; for example, I just downloaded some lovely Sigur Ros.
28. I so wish I could snowboard and play the drums, they're both on my to-do list.
29. I hate to say it, but I'm addicted to sour skittles. I love them so much, it's unnatural.
30. I do not beleive in ghosts, but magic is still up for grabs.

I could probably come up with more, but I'll save those for later. I realised that writing these really makes me put my life into perspective, and I hope I'm getting closer to being me.

Have a nice night, Z.

OK, here's a list of places I need to visit before I turn twenty five.

1. London, England.
2. Paris, France.
3. Al Qahira, Egypt.
4. Athens, Greece. (By Myself.)
5. Nairobi, Kenya.
6. Tamatave, Madagascar.
7. Madrid & Barcelon, Spain.
8. Genova & Roma, Italy.
9. Nicosia, Cyprus.
10. Dublin, Ireland.
11. Tokyo, Japan.
12. Singapore, Malaysia.
13. Sydney, Australia.
14. Wellington, New Zealand.
15. Montego Bay, Jamaica.
16. British Columbia, Saskatchewan, and Prince Edward Island.

I'll get to these places, eventually. Just wait.
Thanks,
Z.

listening to : it's a new day - will.i.am

hey so, first post of two-thousand-nine.
i'm doing good, getting better every day.
the pain isn't gone, but it's not ripping me apart.

i made a plan. oh baby, did i ever.
what is the plan? well, graduate high school. go back for an extra semester. work through the summer and the first semester. with the saved up money, travel through europe for three months. visit family. experience different cultures. meet interesting people. go places i've never gone. come back and work some more. start school again in september.

i like that plan. it's stable and it's something i can handle and work towards.
also :
new years resolutions are - travel some more, carry a notebook with me everywhere, be happy with myself.

let's keep the faith folks, because it's a new day.
z

you make me feel like i can't do anything right.
you make me feel like i have to do everything.
and it's still not good enough.
you make me feel like everything is my fault.
but no, it's you.
it's your fault you decided to ditch.
ditch your best friend, when she was always there.
ditch your other life, because you think they're better.
guess what i've decided: you're not worth waiting for.
when you realise what you've lost, it's too bad "best friend", i'll have already been long gone.

too bad you're kind of an idiot, love, z.

Ever feel like everything is slipping out of your grasp?
I was walking home today and I couldn't help but notice that the closer I got to the light, the farther away my shadow went, slowly disappearing until the light it self had been pushed behind me. Doesn't everyone refer to the light as something good and gloriouos? Yet, when your shadow, the one thing that will always comes back to you, disappears at the presence of light doesn't that make you think maybe light isn't the greatest thing ever. Especially seeing as sometimes, everyone needs a little darkness to bring them back to reality.

I've promised myself I'll never feel like I'm losing my shadow. Hopefully, this promise will hold true.


Merci, Z.

Bah, I do believe this is the first post of 2008.
I'm quite sorry for any disappointments that I may have caused my loyal readers during my lapse of absense. *scoff*

I just thought I'd sneak on finally and document my day because it was by far one of my most memorable.
Starts out with the basics:
School (semester II !)
My teachers yelled at us, go figure.
HOMEWORK. I actually did it ;)
Ditched out on volleyball (for the first time) and went to the library/Randelle's instead!
Before though we went for coffee (me) and carrot muffins (her) at our locale café.
Then we talked/laughed/danced/cooked/worked on homework.
It was wonderful ! I really do love her.

Decided to bounce outta' there after fooling around with carpets and sharpies and pizza.
Got home and immediately had to get ready for a staff party that was less staff and even less party than anyone had expected.
Finally!, my favourite person showed up :D
My cousin, incase you were wondering, she's literally my BFF, as juvenile as that sounds.
We soon ditched the "social party" scene and went to pick up her little brother, who in fact, isn't all that little. He's actually like 6'2" and bigger than both of us.
THIS IS WHERE THE FUN STARTS AGAIN.
I will now explain in one-five word sentences.

Drive. McDonalds. Amy, answer her! Cellphones. Money! Debit. Highway. Texting. Decisions. Call! New Jacket? Yes. Mad. NoMcD'sforRobin! Drift. NeedICE. HEAT. Love. Laugh. Smile. Snort. G1. Stop ! Amy, stop! Staples parking lot. Get out. Switch! Watch the plate. POLE! Snowbank. Robin! Ahhhh. Drift x 4. Laughing none stop. No gas. Enough to get home? Let's see. Timmies. 2 Bagels, Ice Cap. NO. :D

I love my family. I really and honestly do. They make my life what everyone wants.

GOODNIGHT. (L) Zoe.

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